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I got laid off. Which is the second worst kind of laid to get.

Still in shock. Gonna apply for Unemployment, but aside from that, I'm not gonna make any major decisions for a week or so.
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This morning, I referred to this coffee mug as "The Beth cup".



Which I then followed up with "Because it's the Beth cup in my collection."* :p

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* It was made for me by my dear friend Beth, of course. ;-)
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These are the lyrics to the song that was inspired by Amanda Palmer's The Art of Asking. I just now decided that its title is simply "Amanda". I don't have a melody quite nailed down yet, but the lyrics are solid.

Amanda
by Eben Brooks, 2018

Dear Amanda, I hope that this letter
Finds you in good health and good spirit
You prob'ly don't know me unless someone sent you
My song and you took time to hear it
I'm not quite a fan, though I do like your music
At least what I've heard here and there
But I'm reading your book, and it's like you see through me
With all my desires laid bare
And I wish I were brave enough, strong enough, good enough
Able, like you, to let go
And trust that the fall wouldn't crush me completely...
Amanda, I just want to know

Dear Amanda, I once met your husband
I doubt he remembers at all
My mem'ry of him doesn't match your description
I guess twenty years takes a toll
I offered to purchase his stage-worn red waist-coat
Which he called a "weskit", of course
I knew he'd say no, but if I hadn't asked him
I knew I'd be filled with remorse
And I wish I'd been brave enough, strong enough, good enough
To ask him to come to my show
But the author of Sandman was too high above me...
Amanda, I just want to know

Dear Amanda, I wish I had seen you
When you came to play in my town
But my heart was too wounded to see your success
And feel anything but beaten down
And I know that that's bullshit, that one person's win
Doesn't mean someone else's defeat
But you're so much younger, have done so much more
And my demons have so much to eat
And it's hard to be brave enough, strong enough, good enough
Facing my could-have-been-so
But fear is a monster, and I cannot slay it...
Amanda, I just want to know

I just want to know

I just want to know
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... hear me tweet.

Yes, I've finally done it: I've gone and created a Twitter account. It's under the name @EbenBrooksMusic, although I won't tweet only about my music. That being said, so far, I've tweeted to James Gunn about "I Am Groot" and to Amanda Palmer about a new song I wrong that was inspired by her book The Art of Asking. No responses yet, but ... well, they probably won't actually respond, to be honest, but there's always that tiny sliver of a chance, right?

So, yeah, anyway ... if y'all wanna see my digital birdsong, follow me on Twitter. But if you don't want to, that's fine. I'll still write here and on FB and in my monthly email newsletter.
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As many of you know, I sometimes refer to myself as The Working Class Superhero of San Diego. But I haven't really talked very much about what that means and why I call myself that. That's partly deliberate, because I wanted there to be at least a little bit of mystery around it. Mysteries are, after all, intriguing. This has also allowed me to spend time refining what I really do mean by it.

However, I think it's about time to set it down in writing, both for my own benefit and for the benefit of anyone else who wants to follow the path of the Working Class Superhero. Because I don't reserve the term for myself. Anyone can be a Working Class Superhero, but being one entails committing to a few things:

FIRST and foremost, you must take care of yourself. You can't do any good in the world if you, yourself, are falling apart. Self-care is very, very important—and it is also, as it happens, one of the skills that modern Americans are worst at. But in order to effectively do the things that a Working Class Superhero needs to do, you have to be coming from a place of security.

SECOND, you must decide what ideals you are committed to fighting for, and you should write them down. Writing them down will help you clarify them and refine them, and it gives them solidity. Nebulous or vague ideals don't inspire action, only reaction. Also keep in mind that if, in the process of writing your ideals down, you find that they aren't what you thought they were, it's perfectly okay to start over with new ones.

THIRD, you must, to the best of your ability, help people who need help. There is no formula for this other than that you should use your judgment, both in whom to help and in how to do it. But it's important to understand that those who need help may not be able to ask for it, and those who ask for help may not necessarily need it (at least not in the form that they are asking for it). And, of course, helping others will be empowered by your ability to take care of yourself (the first commitment) and guided by your ideals (the second commitment).

And that's about it. Help people, know why you're helping people, and don't overextend yourself. By this definition, many of you are already Working Class Superheroes. And those of you who aren't are probably pretty close.

And one final thing: I use the term Working Class Superhero despite the fact that I'm not technically working class. I made that choice, of course, because it's a riff off of "Working Class Hero". But if you're not comfortable with that term, use one that you are comfortable with. "Everyday Superhero." "Ordinary Hero." "Rebel for a Common Cause." Or whatever feels right to you.

Oh, and don't forget to ask for help yourself if you need it. That gives other Working Class Superheroes an opportunity to do their thing.
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Thanks to everyone who weighed in on the "editing mistake" thread on Facebook. The suggestion to fix the track and make the first 50 copies a "limited edition" or "collector's edition" has been considered ... and rejected. Not that it's a bad idea, but I have several reasons to no do it:

1) The mistake is really, really minor. Unless I pointed it out to someone, they probably would never notice it, even if they listened to both tracks.

2) I don't want to permanently retire the first cover artwork, or even change it to reflect a new release.

3) Doing a second release would necessitate creating a new UPC, which costs money.

So I'm just gonna leave it as it is. Perhaps I'll release the "correct" version of the song in question as a free single or something, but redoing the album for it just doesn't make sense, even if my perfectionist streak is clamoring for me to do so.
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Wow. Haven't done a con in a while, forgot how exhausting it could be. Came home from LosCon Saturday night, then spent all day Sunday doing jack diddly 'cause I was so tired. Still, it was a fun con, and I made decent sales. And it was good to see old friends again. :) Thanks especially to the Krypton Radio people for letting me crash in their room Friday night.

LosCon

17 Nov 2017 11:28 am
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I still don't have a place to crash for LosCon, unfortunately, but I WILL be there. I've got a quick set right after the Ice Cream Social on Friday and then a 45-minute set during the filk concert Saturday evening. If all else fails, I can always sleep at my Dad's place in the Valley.
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There will be an alternate cover for all CDs sold through CDBaby and for all digital downloads regardless of source. CDs I sell in person will still have the original cover, at least until I run out of the first printing.
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11 Nov 2017 06:56 pm
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*Sigh* Well, it's looking like there's going to have to be two covers for "Heroes": one for the CDs I personally sell at shows and one for everything else. CDBaby won't touch the art that I commissioned from Stephen. Hrmpf.
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The final cover art for "Heroes". Line drawing by Stephen Bergstrom, coloring and lettering by me.


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It's done. "Heroes" is at the replication house. I'll have CDs in a week.
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A friend of mine and I recently had occasion to discuss Doctor Who. He does not like Doctor Who, and he believes it is a poorly-written show. His argument was that the Doctor consistently acts in an irresponsible and reckless way and really should have destroyed the timestream with all of his antics by now, and the fact that he hadn't was, in his opinion, just lazy writing. Interestingly enough, he offered The Flash as a counterpoint, saying that, although Barry does time-travel fairly extensively, there are usually consequences when he does. He rewrites history, creates paradoxes, breaks things, and often makes things worse when he's trying to make them better.

My counter-argument was, basically, "Different show, different rules, different audience." I wasn't upset about his not liking Doctor Who—it's anyone's prerogative to like or dislike anything, and arguing that someone should or should not like a given thing is usually useless—but I was a bit put off by his reasons for saying that it wasn't a good show. It took me a while to figure out why, though, and even longer to put it into coherent thought. But on my way to work this morning, I was able to mentally articulate my counter-argument more clearly.

The Flash has, basically, two central themes. The first is this: Sometimes, no matter how good your intentions, you're going to make bad choices ... and when you do, you have to live with the consequences. Barry makes a lot of bad decisions in The Flash. Sometimes he's able to correct the bad decision and fix what he broke, but other times he can't. And it's at those times, when he has to accept the fact that he screwed up and there's nothing he can do to fix it, that he becomes a better person. The second theme is this: No matter how badly you may have screwed up or how hopeless the situation seems, if you have even the slimmest chance of making things better, you have to try. Barry never gives up hope for long. Oh, sure, he may go through a crisis of conscience for an episode or two here and there, but he always comes back to himself. His driving emotion is hope, and that what makes him a powerful character.

These themes work well in the context of The Flash ... and they really don't work in the context of Doctor Who. The central theme in Doctor Who is not about choices, or consequences, or hope, but about the Doctor's overwhelming drive to save people. The Doctor is a man who, despite whatever quirk of personality his current incarnation displays, always tries to save people. His TARDIS takes him to where he's needed, often against his will, and when he finds out what's going on, he does everything he possibly can to save everyone, even if—heck, especially if—in doing so he puts himself in mortal peril. And yes, sometimes he breaks things. But they don't stay broken for long, because he fixes them, which is yet another aspect of his drive to save people. All people! Even the bad people, because he would rather redeem than destroy, even if the chance of redemption is extremely slim.*

For years, his greatest regret was the destruction of his home planet and his species, along with the Daleks. Even though he felt it was necessary in order to save the rest of the universe, he always considered it his greatest failure. And then he discovered that he hadn't actually destroyed them, just isolated them from the time stream and then made himself forget so that he wouldn't be tempted to bring them back and potentially endanger the rest of the universe again. This is another example of the Doctor's willingness to sacrifice himself for the greater good.

So to evaluate Doctor Who using the themes and values of The Flash is missing the point—just as evaluating The Flash using Doctor Who's themes is. From the point of view of The Flash, yes, the Doctor is a reckless maniac who screws with time willy-nilly in ways that should create ridiculous, possibly universe-ending paradoxes and temporal fractures, yet somehow doesn't, and so he comes across as a Deus ex Machina more often than not. But from the point of view of Doctor Who, the Flash is playing with forces he cannot possibly understand, and yet the one thing that he has tried hardest to do is the one thing that he has always failed at—saving his mother. The Flash's fans might say of Doctor Who "Where are the consequences of his actions?" But Doctor Who's fans might say of The Flash "What kind of hero gives up on saving someone?"

And both are wrong, because both are missing the point. If the Flash saved his mother, it would negate who he is as a character: a man who, despite all of the forces arrayed against him and all of the mistakes he has made and all of the people he has hurt, continues to hope for the best. And if the Doctor failed to save people, even if the reason for it was his own hubris or recklessness, that would also negate who he is as a character: the one who saves everyone. That's not just what he does, it is what defines him. The Doctor without this quality is not the Doctor, just as a Barry Allen who gives up hope in the face of long odds is not Barry Allen.

It's fine to not like something, and it's fine to not like it for reasons that may seem trivial or meaningless to others. But it's always a good idea to try to remain aware of when you're applying standards to it that are secondary or superfluous to its theme and purpose.

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*Yes, I am aware that the Doctor has killed people on many occasions and failed to save them on many others. Usually, there was a very, very good reason for his making those decisions, but not always. I chalk this up to the fact that it's a TV show, and not every writer for the show is in total agreement with each other as to the Doctor's central ethic.
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Read this article. Especially read it if you're a guy. It's important.

http://pvponline.com/news/the-importance-of-crying
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Hey, guys. I wanted y'all to know that LiveJournal is accepting HTTPS connections again. If this makes any difference in your choice to abandon the platform, let me know. I'm considering going back there myself.
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